O level is over!!

O level is finally over.. after my 5 years of secondary school live is really come to an end with the last paper done this morning which is MCQ physic/chem paper haha a tricky paper though~ but got confident can do well in it. just worried for the overall results.. hoping for a 15. haha hope so.. i will  be praying hard for it
i must really thank all the people who supported me till today,it  is not a easy route i must say haha but this year is a year that challenge myself in all aspects.
even though o level is over! time to play! yay! actually i dont really feel that happy about it haha i mean not that excited i feel more bored.. like really nothing to do anymore except playing. my 3 years worth of books i dunno weather to throw or not is like been with me since i am in seconday 3 haha
cant wait for tomorrow's clique outing, can watch Ah Boys To Man! a Singapore National Service based movie!
haha for now my schedule is kinda packed as i going to work soon too so i wan to faster enjoy my this one week!

My Self Declared Holiday And Birthday

My Os are almost over! left 2 more papers which is my Chinese and my science mcq. i got c6 for Chinese during June and i decided to retake to test my luck since can try againn.. y not? haha hope to make my certificate look more nicer haha and i dun think i be using my mother tongue as a subject  to enter polytechnic so ya haha kinda slack now.  this exam even though is still much smaller than A lvl and university level exam but it did almost killed me mentally and emotionally hahaha without the support of friends hahha i wont be able to hang on till now. to be honest if i did not do well i would be quite disaappointed as i really tried. friday paper is so difficult that i think i will really fail it haha.

last friday was a okok day as i got my DNT exam. and is very difficult.. not say donno how to do. the answers can be found on textbook but these question is uncommonly come out during exam so what we studied all did not came out what we did not studied came out. is seriously bullshit la the paper.. the whole class shake head sia. then my teacher personally sms me and ask how did i do. i do know how to reply but still have to say i did badly for it. feel bad felt that i disappointed him. but oh well enough of O lvls
on that day is also my birthday hahaa i got a birthday surprise by my clique at yao siang house haha was kinda happy that i forget about my DNT. so we had astons at tpy safra. we waited about an hour tilll our food come.. bored like hell. i ordered the grill fish with herbs and 2 portion of onion rings as i had fries that afternoon and mac and cheese is not avaliable and  basically i am so hungry i did not care how does it really taste like.then we had pool session after that, we wanted to bowl but then is full so we pool haha as usual i played like shit but had fun. my friends gave me a monkey doll as it looked like my shirt that i usually wear that have a monkey design on it. and a oppa gangnam style badge ahaha and a black jacket coat. really love those gifts.

then for the past 4 days i been playing sudden attack or dota 2 either one of them. actually kinda relies that game is not everything i do not have the fun feel anymore i just play because i don wanna study? and is time consuming Os ending in 3 days time. lucky i got a job in place for me. but dunno weather can cope with it or not.. oh well...... hahaha

Middle of Os.

sorry to my viewers, if there is, for not really updating my blog these few weeks as i am currently having my Os but it will be over in 2 weeks time haha and i will definitely post pictures again^^. 

frankly speaking it is not easy to walk this road alone. sometimes i really wish there is somebody is walking with me. i thought of my ex as when ever i need someone she be there but yea i know is over already..long time ago is already over. but oh well it made me stronger to face everything alone.

i am most afraid of failing people expectations than my own expectations. when i see they place their hopes on me it make me work even harder.. but i fear more too. The fear of letting them down. 

i under performed during my science practical and to me is a very big blow as science is always my core subject, is one of my best and i aiming for an distinction in the beginning  now. i still have to do my best hoping to fight for a B3 at least.

before i work on science i need to prepare for my social studies exam which is tomorrow 29/10/12

 5 consecutive days of social studies really kills. could not memorise anything so i decided to do my notes ..and i took 2 days... now left 1 day to memorise 4 chapters.. about 15 essays?so ya.. i need to get my distinction for combine humanities. must not under perform.. 

mentally, emotionally physically tired. but what to do.. give my all..2 weeks..

Graduation Day 2012 (12/10/12)

Today is my school graduation ceremony 5 years have passed and it come to an end of my secondary school life. i have very wonderful and fun time during this 5 years . there is no words to describe what i experience in Beatty. there is tough times as well but without it our bonds would not get stronger. i do miss the days where i have my leadership roles in Boys Brigade and Sports Leaders plan and execute events. i learn a lot of stuff and really grew up a fair bit and all this is thanks to the teachers that did not give up in teaching us. i miss doing performance from precision drill to dancing. i still remember i first performed was during early sec 2 and i start to prepare it at the end of sec 1, went through very tough training like changing of full uniform in 3 min and change back and forth. a changing parade. endure the hot sun. man do miss those days. i start to join sports leader during sec 2 and learned abseiling, rock climbing, kayaking and various leadership concepts and skills as well as event management and planning.
my whole secondary school life can be written as a book. i will find one day after Os to type out all my experiences in secondary school that i still remember and keep it as a form of a school dairy.
one more day less. 5 days more to Os. lets do this.

~Crush/Crushed~

A topic on crush/crushed hmm a hard topic for me as i dont really know what it really mean but i try to post something out of it haha so if what i say below is irrelevant please forgive me >< 

In physically term Crush/Crushed means compressive forces is acting on something like this (the arrows stands for the forces)  > object <   thats what happen in most car accidents

some people treat this word as a failure word to describe them that they have failed to accomplish something

In romance terms, is the first stage of signs, showing likeness to someone, is a sudden increase of feeling for the person when you see him/her it can be also she/he it can be regard as a eye candy if you regard him/her abit more special than normal friends but do not want to progress further as friends. 

a simple crush can be started from looks, personality and etc

it might and might not last for long depends on your feelings

but it can make your feelings more deeper for that person and it turned to love 

Signs of crush:
Eye contact: ( if someone hole eye contacts with you for a long period when he/she is talking to you) 

[studies say that if you see someone you like your pupil will automatic get bigger without you knowing] 

Nervous when talking to you: ( the person heart will beat fast when he/she look at you and could not think of what to say to you)

[ abit true, but some people might do something else to overcome this nervousness]

Willing to do anything you ask: (he/she will definitely do anything for you if you requested)

[the most obvious sign, but some guys might treat girls very nice and treat them as very good friends]

He/She will pop out everywhere,whenever you go: (He/She will find opportunities to get closer to you so he/she will be there if he/she knows you are there)

[ a very common sign but is hard to tell if he/she have a crush on you]

Smiles: (He/she will smile at you like this =D a very big grin when he/she saw you.)

[common sign but is hard to tell if he/she really have a crush on you too, he/she can be just happy]

The way he/she talks: (he/she can talk to his/her friends very chor lor aka like very open and very care free but when he/she talks to you they be more careful of their words used and their tone of speaking)

 [not all will show this sign but this sign is obvious] 

personal view from me when i have a crush on someone.. hahaha almost all of the factors i listed above will be shown except the 4th one haha as for the last factor i do have it last time but now no. because  i like to be the person who i really am. be yourself and people will naturally like the way you are =].

This is true also ><: 

*I Do Not Own This Picture*

   Taken from: http://www.fanpop.com/spots/love-hard/images/30760763/title/lol-crush-chart-photo

~What does not kill me but make me stronger~

hmmm.. this is a tough topic that my friend requested me to blog  but i will try, so do forgive me if i did say anything wrong and is based on how i view it so is not really accurate  and correct. 

HURT,PAIN

What does not kill me but make me stronger is a famous quote said by the philosopher Nietzsche, it is related to pain , when you receive pain, you do hurts, but that give you a opportunity to make you stronger,

"No Pain, No Gain', at least it do not kill you but hurt you instead. no one can be stronger when they do not get hurt. the hurt must not be a physical hurt. can be any hurt like emotional hurt. and form of depressing feeling you have is considered a hurt to you. it do harm your body if you do not handle that feeling well. 

After going through the hurt, you will be more resistant to the hurt that did to you before. 

like the worst thing you have already experienced it once or twice so other problems wont be as serious as that? then you wont be so badly affected by it and also if the same thing happen to you in future you will know how to handle your feelings well .

FAILURES 

Failures is also a factor that it does not kill you but makes you stronger, like i said in my previous post, a person can never succeed without failing several times. the more you fail the more stronger you will get as you will strive you to do better and you will learn from your mistakes

Failure is the Mother of Success, a Chinese idiom

Shi bai nai cheng gong zhi mu 

Every failure that you experience is a chance to learn from it and find success.
Knowing what does not work is just as important as finding out what does work.

Actually in life is always this 2 aspect that will make you stronger if you relies, you might hate pain and hate failures but if you think at another point is a great opportunity to learn from it. 

~HOPE~

I decided to blog on the topic > Hope today, requested by my friend
so.. what is Hope?

there is many views and definitions about Hope 

1) The feeling of something you wish that it will happen to you?

    E.g i HOPE i will score straight As for my examination

2) When you are worried for someone?

     E,g i HOPE he is fine..he is sick for a few weeks!

3) A light at the end of a tunnel?
    E.g a cancer patient is at its final cancer stage but there is a sudden turn of events the patient got better.

    there is HOPE!

These is the 3 common daily feelings of HOPE, everybody hopes! so is not a bad thing!

sometimes hope is a tool that drive you forward

A student might be failing every single exam and feel very down, demoralize but when the student improves a little.the feeling of HOPE(a chance of success) will suddenly be in thee student, and the student will use that feeling to push himself/herself further. 

like we always have charity shows, we will donate money by calling its hotlines which gives HOPE to the  patients that they will get well from the money we donated to fund the treatments and equipment

Determination and willpower will be shown by your own when there is no any option left, when your situation is already at the most bottom level. 

E.g something bad happen to you and you still be like.. there is still chance of getting back the same situation you previously.

in my own opinion HOPE is a stepping stone when you failed or you feel very depress 

and having this hope you will have the willpower to stand up and be more stronger and get back what you want which is also linked to the first view stated above, the feeling of something you wish that it will happen to you.

so is like this

You got something > You lost it  > Depressed > Hope > Determination > Get back on your feet

the last stage getting back on your feet dose not mean you can get what you got previously.it depends. but you will definitely be stronger 

like this saying a child would not learn how to walk if he dose not fall

also linked to a man wont be successful if he dose not make mistakes and fails

> Making mistakes will help you to learn more instead.

you might not agree to what i say as different people have different views about hope and this is mine stated above. 

An advice to my viewers . Dont give up when you fail. there is hope always even if you could no get your end result at least you learned something to prevent it from happening it again.

                                                           * I Do Not Own This Picture*

Taken From:http://blog.larrybodine.com/2008/12/articles/money/light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel-for-residential-real-estate/