~MY Obsession~

Been quite a while since i post something, life seems too boring for me as in everyday doing the same thing, 7.30am wake up go to work > knock off from work ,> eat > rest > sleeep this cycle repeats for like 5 times a week, as 2 days in the week is my off days.

Decided to write about my obsession as my friend requested for the topic when i asked her.
frankly speaking  i like being mysterious hahaha people wan to know me must mix with me to know me more.

But haha shall do a post of some of my obsession!

Money
Money for now is my top obsession, i felt that i did not earn enough this holiday season, to people around my age thinks having that amount is alot but to me is never enough.. money can be never earn enough (exclude millionaires), I felt there is alot of money i need, in future  i need a house, car, starting up a family also, bills, kids education and so on. people spend a few years just to pay off bank loans and installments which i dont really like, i don't like to pay every month, i just wan to like one shot to get it done those kind. which also reflects my other personality which i dont like to own people stuff. unless they really treat me if not will return what i owe.

Winning
This is my main problem now, and i am still facing it sometimes, i dont know why but i will start to compete with others for position, grade and maybe fame, is like i wan to be the best of the best, the top.
due to this to me my secondary two and three in my cca i fight for power greatly that i feel i did a very wrong thing trying to be the top. frankly speaking even working with friends in the past, i will like try to out beat my friend. i feel i am quite scary sometimes due to this. is like if is too over obsess with it i will do anything to achieve it.


Fitness
My current new goal and obsession is being buffed, i been skinny for too long, and i now train my body every 2-3 days i just really wan my body to be more buffed, due to my height i wan to be more stronger too , i dont wan people to think i am short easy to bully etc. now fitness training become a routine and habit for me. if i exceed 3 days of not training i feel insecure. but i guess is a good thing i train my body up,  prepare to go national service which is 3 years from now, hope to get into the Guards Unit.

Johnny Liu Shuen Wei
Must be wondering why this guy is my obsession,?  i am not gay so dont worry!! hhaah he is my favorite junior till now. i dunno why but i feel more comfortable with him than my other juniors not even those from my cca. maybe i dun treat him as a junior at all, more like a brother or a friend, we looked alike too haha which i found it amazing haha hope to hang out with him more in future especially after his Os.